Who am I? Or rather, What am I?
This may be the single most important question I ask myself and implore of you.
I am one who is insatiably curious and yet contentedly unfazed.
I am strong while also weak.
I am fearless and yet timid.
I am social and reclusive, together bound within this body of contradictions with which I reside.
I am called Stephanie, or Steph.. or Chochy when my sister couldn’t pronounce my name or Steph-Steph-Stephanie-Alisanjelly by my step-sons when they were yet young.
Friend, enemy.
Honest, fraud.
Grounded, unhinged.
Intelligent, clueless.
Classy, trashy.
Hard-working, lazy.
Leader, follower.
Kind, cruel.
Present, distracted.
Funny, dull.
Reliable, undependable.
Warm, cold.
.. the list goes on…
But really, who am I?
Am I one or all of the boxes in which my identity can be further broken down into?
A woman.
A nurse.
Wife.
Step-mom.
Spiritual seeker.
Reiki master.
Traveler.
….?
That is what my journey is about. Reconnecting with mySelf, Spirit, and Mother Earth. Discovering the “I” of which I am in the process. The “I” in which we are.
And for me, my path has led me to wildly shaking up what and who I believe myself to be, while also embracing the truth that I already am and need not do a thing. Ay, contradictions! That is my favorite trait of cheeky Spirit (universe, whatever you choose to call IT), the wildly paradoxical nature of everyTHING! One of my favorite sayings is “In every truth, the opposite is equally true”. Sit with it.
So here I am, writing an introduction of myself at the precipice of change and constancy. Letting go of attachments to who and what I have been in reckless abandonment of embodying my truest authentic expression. Or simply, existing.
If my wild stirs you, then join me. Share your wild. I would love nothing more than to share with others regardless of what they are seeking or not seeking. Growth is universally shared.
Whether you are wild enough to leave what was or wild enough to stay with what is, I believe the most wild journey is the one experienced within.
Happy journeying!
Yours truly,
Fellow I am
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